Shoutin’ from the Rooftop

It seems like over the past few months and 2009 that too many times I have opened a post with “Sorry that I have been away for so long”. That is never my intention. It seems like 2009 just kept hitting our family upside the head.

I was looking and it has been too long since I have posted last. I unfortunately have had very strong reasons why I have been missing and I do apologize.

Chris’ grandmother passed away the Saturday before Christmas. So we had the calling & funeral a few days leading up to Christmas. Edna had lived a very full life but it was still hard for the family to lose her so close to Christmas. Then on the Wednesday before Christmas, we had a very close friend who last his battle with cancer. Mike had fought and tried everything. He was one in a million kind of friend and he will be greatly missed. And of course that meant another funeral. You are just not supposed to see a forty-two-year-old in a casket. Monday was an extremely hard day.

In the midst of all of that, Sydney got her braces put on the Monday before Christmas. She was such a trooper and then the pain hit.  It was rough for a few days.

Chris’ family celebrated Christmas at our house on Christmas Eve and then my entire family was here on Christmas Day. Christmas morning was so fun. Megan is finally old enough to really enjoy the giving and getting gifts. It was nice that we got to stay at our house and not go around town to others’ homes. The girls were in the pjs for 36+ hours and they loved every minute of it.

My sister (who has been living in Colorado since August) and my brother-in-law came in to town late Sunday. So we got to spend some time with them during those two days. We have missed her so much that it was healing to spend time with her after the emotionally draining events of two funerals.

Then last night we were at my Mom’s house and I get a call that a realtor wants to show our house. Awesome. So Chris & I stayed up late working on getting the house ready. This morning while I was finishing up, Chris took the girls to Target to window shop to help them decide how to spend their Christmas money and gift certificates. And wouldn’t you know it, Sydney starts throwing up in the middle of Target. :::sigh::: So the rest of the fun things we had planned for the day were scrapped. I have spent the day on the couch with my pitiful girl while waiting and hoping to get a call for good news about the showing.

I saw all of that to say that in my emotional state of the last few weeks and the last year, I have reverted back to too much of my emotional eating and making excuses. I know it. It is the fact. I can’t ignore it or deny it any longer. I am truly and deeply disappointed in myself because I really thought that I wouldn’t let myself do that. But it is done. So now I am working on what I am going to do to remedy it.

I am doing some deep and personal soul searching to figure out how I can overcome this problem. I truly wish I didn’t have to ever eat again. But since that isn’t an option, I am going to have to be stronger and do what I know works and worked for me before.

So I am signing off for the next few days. I have a sick girl next to me that needs my attention and I need to sanitize everything in sight to hopefully prevent this stomach bug from spreading to the rest of the family. Not the way I had hoped to ring in the new year and decade.

And by the way, I got my  Zumba dvds for Christmas from my Mom. Thanks Mom. I can’t wait to try them out.

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