Sep152009
Determination Despite it All
Filed under Confession,Day to Day by kristen at 3:28 pm on Sep 15 2009
I first want to apologize. I feel like I have neglected the blog for some time. It seems like things just are so crazy. I keep thinking that any day we are going to get our “normal, somewhat-calm, not-so-much-drama” life back. I was telling my brother earlier this week that it seems like the last 11 months have been a lot of medium things. Not minor things but not life & death things for which I am extremely grateful.
The stress of having our house on the market has been much more than I was expecting. Then the stress of only one showing in a month was painful. For those of you that live in the Muncie area, I am not sure if you saw the story in the newspaper about the man that was caught stealing from houses. Do you know where I am going with this yet? Ha. He stole from us. The range of emotions knowing that a person was rummaging through our stuff about sent me over the edge. I just felt so ick.
So we had a great family weekend. Mostly quiet. Not a bunch going on. Just time together that wasn’t stressful or rushed. I had decided that I was cracking down and diligently tracking points every day. Got off to a great start yesterday before I took Megan to her first speech session of the semester. After her session, I decided to run a quick errand and when we were leaving, we were in a small accident. Ugh. Really? Just another one of those “medium things”. It didn’t help that Chris was out of town for his job.After I got home from that fiasco, I wanted to eat my kitchen clean. Seriously. I think I could have done it. I came home & fixed myself a nice salad with some BBQ chicken on it. I was determined that I wasn’t going to cave to that desire to stuff my face. And to just add some interest to the rest of my day, we got a call that there was a realtor that wanted to show our house the next day (today). Of course we were ecstatic but I was stressed trying to get things ready with Chris out of town. (deep breathes) I scrambled but got it ready. I did it all and still stuck to my points for the day, writing everything down that went in my mouth. Huge for me after the last few weeks.
So I started off this morning strong. Journal still out. Wrote everything down. I was going to stick to it. Then I got a phone call about the accident yesterday. Needless to say I was in tears when the call ended. Just more “medium” things. Again, resisted the urge to stuff my face. Not that stuffing my face would have helped in any way and would have ended up making things worse. But thankfully this morning we got a call that the police deemed it the other party’s fault.
To be painfully honest, I think sometimes I still struggle with finding other coping methods. I easily fall back in to old patterns of self-medicating with food. Not a good pattern and I need to stop it now. I am not one good to handle stress well. Never have been as long as I can remember. So I am working on some new coping methods.
So despite it all, my journal is still filled out. I am within my points for the day.
1 Tammy Lea Pinchardon 15 Sep 2009 at 6:51 pm
Kristen,
Just wanted to say how proud of you I am, that through all the stress you have managed to stay on track these past few days! I, too, am a stress eater and have a HORRIBLE time with finding another method of coping.
Unfortunately, I have let myself gain back over 60 lbs that I had lost, and balloon even higher. I have been on track for the last two days as well, but find myself wanting the “bad stuff” way too often.
Hang tough lady. I’m cheering for you out here in the cyber world!
2 Angel Alteron 17 Sep 2009 at 5:29 am
I am proud of you Kristen. Hang in there. Just recognizing you need to cope with other methods is huge!
3 kristenon 22 Sep 2009 at 1:11 pm
Tammy-You can do it too! Hang tough.
Angel-Thank you so much. You are more of an inspiration than you realize.