Apr072009
Internal Struggle
Filed under Confession by kristen at 1:42 pm on Apr 07 2009
It seems like for the past few days that I have been battling myself. An internal struggle. All I want to do is eat. Part of me just says to go ahead and eat. Then the rational side of me reminds myself that eating (when not hungry) would be counter-productive to all of this running. You know the whole calories in vs. calories burnt.
I am tired of fighting this internal struggle. Does it ever really end? At what point does the addiction to food end? Or does it?
I am not trying to be a downer. Just writing what I am thinking this afternoon. On a brighter note, I am making a new recipe for dinner tonight. Hopefully it will turn out and be a new hit.
1 Karen/Momon 07 Apr 2009 at 3:01 pm
I think the addiction/craving for food may never stop because it is something we had to have. For instance an alcoholic can stop and start recovery and part of that is never taking another drink. I do think we can, over time, lose are craving for food that are high in sugar. But, it does take a very long time. I am sure no expert. Love you.
2 Mollyon 07 Apr 2009 at 6:12 pm
if it helps, you aren’t alone!
3 megon 07 Apr 2009 at 9:53 pm
yes, this is often a thought that crosses my mind. will i ever be able to just eat without figuring out points (intentionally or not) in my head? i’ve begun to come to the conclusion that yes, this will always be a part of me. a part of my “struggle.” but it’s ok.
i’m never going to be model thin. but i’m healthy. and i want to stay healthy. so, i need to accept the struggle and move on. i know it’s different for everyone.
4 Applesauceon 09 Apr 2009 at 2:42 pm
KRISTEN!
Your entry really spoke to me today. I just finished emaing my group of WW cheerleaders expressing the same frustration…i am so releived to find that I am not alone! Some days it’s just so hard to be good…but I too ama a runner, and know what you mean about being counter productive…giving into cravings is just a short term solution…the good excercise that we are giving our bodies is something we do to stay and continue to be healthy, and isn’t that what it’s all about!?!? in the loooong run, it’s all worth it! just keep reminding yourself of that and remember how far you have some! Keep on rockin’ and runnin!! ;-D