Aug022008
I am MAD!!!
Filed under Journal by admin at 8:00 am on Aug 02 2008
I probably got your attention but it is true. I am spittin’ mad. Just not upset but angry at myself. This goofing off has gone on too long. This morning in our meeting, Pam talked about herself getting mad. It hit me. I am mad. I recognized the feeling. It was the same feeling I had when I first joined Weight Watchers. It is a feeling that I am ready to put to rest. It is a feeling that I don’t like and I am not happy with myself. But it was what finally got me to work on really getting the weight off. I had never been that mad in the past about losing weight. Once I started WW in April 2007, I knew without a shadow of a doubt that I would lose the weight. Again, I know that I will get this weight off. I guess I just needed to get mad.
I haven’t been doing what I know to do. I do well for a few days and then everything starts to overwhelm me. Too much going on right now. Things I can’t control and that is frustrating. But food and what I eat is one thing I can control. So it is time. I never that I would feel this strongly but it is true. No more. Ugh.
I knew that I wasn’t doing well because I haven’t been drinking my water. When I don’t drink enough water then I tend to snack. Stupid but true. Back to drink all of my water, writing down every bite. Once this stinkin blister on my foot heal then I will be back to working out. I am saying all of this because I am going to be accountable. If I was a member, I really don’t think I would be doing what I am doing and messing around like this.
These next 10 days before Sydney starts kindergarten is going to be crazy. But I can control everything that goes in to my mouth and not use food as a means to cope with everything. Yes, these next 10 days are going to be overwhelming but I will come out on top.
On a very exciting front, Roni sent me the link last night to the new site. I am totally in love. Neither one of us was really happy with the first site that she came up with. So Roni went at it again. It was a perfect site. I couldn’t be more happy. I am going to start moving everything over. Of course I am just adding one more thing to my already overflowing plate. Like I needed anything else right now. But I want to get as much moved over to the new site before I have it “go live”.
I hope that I encouraged at least one person that might have been struggling and needed to hear that they aren’t alone. But I will do better. I won’t let the weekend be lax in counting. I will be too busy to even be lax. I knew that I would hit bumps in the road, I just didn’t know that I would go flying so hard.
